Tuesday, 22 September 2009

Day 364

Today was ok. I went to Hamsey after my longest day and it was all jim and dandy and fine. Buzz has settled really well, though is showing signs of box-walking. On the good side, it's not crib biting, and you can simply get around it by tying him up. So lalala.
I then saw Jack and had dinner with him, which was good. I got stupidly tired about 10, so went home, but we spoke on the steps outside for ages so i didn't get to sleep til way too late. It was good, though. He's sweet. =)

Monday, 21 September 2009

Day 363

New hair strikes back.

I moved Buzz to Hamsey =D
He was scared in the box because the door had banged behind him, so I stayed with him and fed him polos and hay from the floor cause we'd decided not to take any because it's only 10 minutes drive.
Ray was driving really slowly down Oxbottom Lane but it felt really fast; it was kinda scary because Buzz was so nervous.
I then went into photography smelling of horse and with hay in my bra, which was fun. Eng lit was cool too; Marky Mark is still lovely. He'll be tiring when in the wrong mood though.

Day 362


Like my hair?
Actually had it done yesterday, but still.

I rode Bill back from the field today, he was really good. Then mine and jack's mothers met, which seemed ok. So yay.
I like Belinda I do.

Day 361

Today I went to White Air, rode Buzz, and did a whole lot more besides. Lovely.

Day 360

Oh my god - only five days left!
I think I' mgoing to extend it, though - so that i can include it in my photography work. So when [extention] days appear, that's why.

So, today.

I went to college then saw Jack v briefly, then went to see Dame Edna at the Brighton Centre. The stand up was genius, but there was a part with a choir which was crap.
I then saw Jack again; he stayed over.

PS: Ew @ photo.

Thursday, 17 September 2009

Day 359

I spent the morning with Jack and French with Charli, but Charli had maths and I had nothing. I went to the library and couldn't get on Facebook so couldn't do anything. I walked to the train station then into town then to pet's corner then back to college where I saw Kristina and I have never been happier to do so. Never.

I was so lonely. I wanted to cry in Spanish.

I wanna talk to someone.

I saw Sabrine on the train, on the way to the station. She went to Blatch. She's having the same trouble as me, but was saying how someone had told her that it could be hard at first. I see so few people alone; I find it hard to go up to a group outside of class.
There was a really nice girl, Miranda, in Spanish though. She was really nice and walked to the station with me.. lovely. She's popular though, which i find kinda daunting.
I'm going to fuck up my bag and not wear my rucksack, I feel too scared and daunted by other people when I do.

Day 358

Due to back problems I had to wear a backpack to school which made me feel small lonely and insecure.
I want people I know better.
I'm scared.

Day 357

First day of collegeee!
Everyone seemed very big.... but there's a really nice girl called Charli who let me spend time with her at lunch. She's cool, and is in 2 of my classes.

Monday, 14 September 2009

Day 356

Turn your head sideways and tell me: is this a black and white photograph?
I think it works better but I'm really really not sure. I like the definition you can see on them esp in the colour. I know the focus isn't right - on the right (top) side of the picture it's out of focus where it really needs to be in focus, but so's life.
So, opinions please...I'm not sure.

Anyway, I got my timetable today and ran into Eleanor, Whatserface and Tron - E & W on the way to the station with Jack when we were messing around, and Tron on the way back from the station with my timetable. Cool times and whatnot.
Jack and I bought junk food and watched Shrek that afternoon. Cool times.

Sunday, 13 September 2009

Day 355

I spent today mostly with Alice; yesterday we rode and played wii and watched a kinda crappy movie and the inbetweeners, and today we watched the inbetweeners, ate breakfast and went riding. Buzz is too fat for his new girth.
It was good.

Saturday, 12 September 2009

Day 354

So far today I have:
rearranged my day 3 times
not ben able to see JCG =[
brushed my teeth twice
got my numnah
worn high shoes
seen bradly bricknell (!)
worn a bright orange top which says "bungy" on the back

Later today I will:
do gridwork with the Buzzsta
see Alice
finish brushing my teeth the second time
buy new shoes
find a bag
pack said bag
not sleep much
watch flash gordon and hairspray (<3)

Pose is what I did before jumping 61 metres to my not-so-demise.

Day 353

I can't believe how near the end of this I really am.

I went to college for a lecture about the photography course today, and felt very lost and lonely. I wanted Jack. I really don't know anyone but Kristina. That's not brill.
It'll be alright though. I'm sure it will.
I saw Jack after getting back from Equine Warehouse to return the stuff I bought just a few days earlier, but not for long enough before leaving to go and see a thing about Lee Miller. She was such an amazing person...I admire her so much.

Thursday, 10 September 2009

Day 352

I Haven't Seen A Pupil In His Eyes For Fifteen Days.

I write this with something used to cool a wine bottle around my foot.

That is because Buzz managed to stand on my foot, on the joint of my big toe on my left foot. That happened just as I was about to turn him out for the night (and next day). At the same time, I saw my bus drive past, so thought "oh, there'll be another in half an hour". But I sat there waiting for the bus, on the phone to Kati, and it didn't come. I tried to walk to the bull inn but couldn't get very far on account of my foot being all owy, so i called my dad. He left right away so i spent 20 minutes back at mwd talking to Seona, Vic (groom) and Molly (groom friend) until i went back to the bus stop and met dad. I had been at the bus stop for at least an hour. I was collld.

But, I'm warm and my tack's coming soon.
Fwee =)

Day 351

Today I went to the stables and saw Jack. Twas cool. There was a girl at the yard - new groom - called Emily who was cool.

Wednesday, 9 September 2009

Day 350

I really can't believe how near to the end of this I am... There's only 16 days left. I started at such a random time. Most people start at their birthdays and say it's what they did while they were whatever age, but no. I include only one birthday and started basically because I couldn't be arsed to wait and Kati had.

It's weird how much I'm planning on changing myself and everything around me... repainting and reorganising my room, changing my hair - pretty much at least - changing college...new start, subconciously, because I've made no efforts mentally to change myself. What do you know, hey.

I had enrolment today and it was kinda boring. A girl who I met on my induction was there and I spent time talking to her, she's really nice. I also got roundings for my bit in the break between a lil test we did and the enrolment itself. Good times.

Monday, 7 September 2009

Day 349 - Monday

I find this photo weird.

I went to Lewes, bought Buzz a blue numnah, running martingale and second pair of reins; decided to redesign my room and started by clearing out some clutter. I have a /lot/ of shit. I've decided to paint my room white, and probably move it around. I want to get rid of my blue shelves, get a new (old but new to me) rug, a new to me lamp and lampshade for the one on my main light, because it's a bit crap. I want to then personalise my walls with photos, tickets, certificates, and anything else I feel like sticking up. I won't take stuff down much, just cover it over eventually. I'll keep everything (except possibly the random crocheted horses on my wall which I don't really care for, tbh) but probably in different places. I'd like some bookshelves too, with old books and ones that I actually read; some classic things in old bound books because I love them so much.. I can't wait.

Enrolment tomorrow at 9:30 am, then I'm meeting Kristina briefly to go to Equestrian Warehouse before doing a mindset thing - I have no idea what that is.
I'm excited.
Buzz in 2 days =)

Day 348

I went to the stables and rode Buzz. I used double reins and a schooling whip and he worked really well. He's pretty unfit but I'm sure that'll be sorted out soon enough!
Nana and Norman and Mum met him today, and I'm really glad that they did.

Day 347

I'm terrible at keeping up with these blog posts. I AM taking the photos, just not posting them.

I spent today with Kati in town. It was brillio fun and I am loving the Jack Wills den room. Teee =))

Friday, 4 September 2009

Day 346

It really did take me a long time to work out that today is today not tomorrow. (i.e. I'm writing about Friday not Saturday.)

This might not make sense because I'm tired. It's 2:34 and I only just got in.

So today I went to London with the intention of going to see a photography exhibition. I went to Hove station and before I got there my iPod ran out of charge which didn't help my day At All. I got to the station and bought my ticket, then wasted the equivilant of a hot chocolate at Eat on a crappy sandwhich, which I didn't eat in the end.
I got to London at about 12 and met Dave, and had lunch. It was nice; we went to a classic pie and mash shop. Their menu was genius.."1 pie 1 mash; 2 pie 1 mash; 2 pie 2 mash..." etc. I tried jellied eels. They were horrible.
I walked with Dave back to his work and then went to the Tate, where I saw an exhibition on Futurism which I skimmed...shall we say (I went in three rooms; one was the first and two were on the way out.) I really wasn't in the right mood. I felt lonly. I wanted to write. So I rang Jack and he cheered me up for about 8 minutes (about the length of the conversation) then I went to the Tate and bought a notebook and pen, purely because I saw a sign saying that tate members had 10% off so justified the overpriced purchase to myself.
I then sat outside the tate and wrote; sat by the Thames and wrote; sat by the Thames and read the Horse Whisperer; then went to Eat and ordered a hot chocolate and read and wrote. Then I left, walked up the embankment, rang mum to see if she knew where a library was because i felt like going to one, then ordered another hot chocolate from eat, then sat and wrote a third person discription of myself, then read.
I went to mum's work some time around five, and she came out some time after five. I spent the time reading.
I felt lonly for a lot of the day.

I had a hole in my tights so mum bought me some new ones which i think are cool, they're red-purple. I had to ask the shop assistant if they went with my red converse, haha.
We ate really nice Thai food with Dave and Jim, during which I got very annoyed at some points becuase I was being ignored and so on. Blah.
The gig, Quantic Soul Orchestra, was really good. Really relaxed. Mum and I did some wicked dancing to Hit The Road Jack, and I ended up really wanting to see Jack. There was a really drunk bloke in front of us with his younger girlfriend who was playing him up soo much. She was very good at it. But he fell on me and that really freaked me out. So I moved away, just in time for mum to get "spoken" to by him; he kinda went 'ithink that's my girlfriendsblurrrrrr', or slurs to that affect. He practically fell on her.

When we left we got the train to Three Bridges and had to wait an hour because we couldn't get a taxi due to lack of money. There were two blokes on the same train as us who went to a nightclub in Crawley during that hour, which was funny 'cause we ended up giving one of them a beer and making friends with them. The one we gave a beer, Simon, was quite good looking, and had quite a dry humor. Matt, who had his own beer, was much more bouncy and lively. They had met on the train to three bridges and gone to a club together for no particular reason.

And lo, it was a good night.

Love you all, you beautiful people.

Thursday, 3 September 2009

Day 345

Just by the way, we didn't eat dinner in the pouring rain the night before, we just walked there in the pouring rain.

Today Jack went to BHASVIC and i read harry potter, then we spent some time together, and then I BOUGHT BUZZZ!!! <333
My horsey, as of 3/09/09.. WEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!

Day 344

Today was SUCH a good day!

I went round to Jack's kinda early (i think?)and just arsed around, then he took me out for dinner in the pouring rain and I was euphorically happy.
We got back and bathed to warm up a bit and relax, then tried to play monopoly with no dice and Scrabble with no scores. So that didn't go well. So we went to bed. And let's ignore the next lil bit.

Day 343

Second day with mama. Spent it swimming, eating and visiting Petworth house. It was really nice =)

I also started wearing a side parting, and i quite like it.

Day 342

today, I went to see the first polo match i ever have and visit a place i keep forgetting the name of which is near esebourne.

I went with my mum and it was incredibly enjoyable =)

Day 341


again, no idea.

Day 340

I quite like this photo...judging by the shades and the surface, I was at Jack's. I'm sure it was fun.

Day 339

Tee, I'm looking at you.

I have no idea what happened in this day. It's been a while.

Let's assume there's milk.

Day 338

I saw my boy again =)
It was good; I missed him.

Jack, when you read this, please don't take the piss out of' my boy'
You are mine

(same to you Kati.)

(and Matt but that won't be for a while if eveR)


Day 337

The day of the return.
Didn't want to but did at the same time.
Was less than heartbroken to be back.
Was almost chatted up on the boat but craftily avoided it by talking to my dad.

Just btw - I hate this photo.

Day 336

It was awesome.
But i didn't like the rebound much, it took me a while to relax. Not that I was relaxed. But still.

I confess that this blatez wasn't taken on the day but i cba to upload my bungy photos. So, sorry. But ehh.

Tuesday, 1 September 2009

Day 335


Good times.