Yesterday was my last day of term, and I was just "Looking Back, Over My Shoulder".
I've had too many boyfriends and haven't considered their feelings all the time. Then again, there's been no reason to. Alec broke up with me essentially so that he could be emotionally traumatised; I can see no other reason. But I'm getting ahead of myself. When I left you, I was wearing Alec's gloves and wanted to say "I love you".
Eventually, he almost made me to say "ily", and I don't think that I would've otherwise. I wish I hadn't, because I developed a huge attachment to him; I enjoyed being with him greatly. But I don't know why. At the end of the day, I kinda wish I hadn't been with him. Then I would've known for sure if I shoudl've been with Jonny or not. But that's another story.
I've found people that I'm happy being friends with and have settled into Lewes at last. I'm getting on with people and, even though I've sold Buzz so I don't really know what to do with my summer, I'm sure I'll find something to do.
I'm hopeful for the future. I just want to get on with it now. Though I am /not/ complaining about this summer break coming up; a huge amount of time stretches ahead of me in which I can do what I want and live all I want. I can't wait.
So beauties, good luck, dream big, love who you deem worthy.
I'll catch you on the flip side.
(L)
