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Hello, Blogger.

I feel horrific today (ergo - no face in the photo) with a high temperature, throbbing headache and swollen glands. So I'll be ringing in the new year at home, in bed. At least probably in bed - hoping I don't just pass out on the sofa!

Have a good one y'all, enjoy yourselves and all the best for 2012.

Make it the best yet.

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Should 21 be hyphenated? This is why we English people need to be taught English properly. I genuinely am not sure.

Btw I look like crap at the moment, hence the photo is only lips/chin. (Y)

Anyway. Thought of the day: don't go out with someone that your friend sets you up with. Because when you break up, the first friend is still friends with the person they set you up with. So when the person you were set up with says "how about we go to (my new lady)'s house party on new year?" there's no reason why the first friend should say no. But like HELL are you gonna actively ruin your new year, no matter how your expectations of it are every year. Ergo: none of your close(ish) friends on New Year.

Though that's probably a good thing. I think Amy and I are going to a house party with Tom and Millie, who are pretty good fun. Millie in her hilariously slutty ways and Tom in his retarded, somewhat chav ways. Good fun chap, he is. Like in Coalition smoking area when we were out, we started squaring up to each other. It ended in a hug and calling each other awesome, which is always nice.

Today I'm trying to get some work done, then I'll have a nice invigorating shower, go into town and wander around Snooper's Paradise looking for a bread bin for my dad, then come back via my mum's so I can get my yoga book and money (I don't trust whoever she's letting sleep in my room and I've been chucking all my change in a glass jar thing.. I have at least £20 in there), do some yoga, clean my Dad's house a bit (bathroom and kitchen today, I think), see what time it is and maybe do some more work, maybe see m'boy Jamaz....then decide whether or not to go out tonight. Could meet Byard again, he's always good fun. We shall see :)

I will do this all while attacking my ear with TCP at regular intervals throughout the day (new piercing infected - boo).

I feel so much better today. In case you hadn't realised. :)

(also... one week. teeee ^,^)

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I've done nothing for a few days, and it's really annoying. I'm not using up the energy that I produce and it's driving me round the bend. I want to go and do stuff but I don't have anything to do, anywhere to go, or anyone to do it with. All my friends want to do is go out and get pissed; no one seems to be up for chilling out, swimming, going somewhere. A little exploration.

I miss my Viking, he would usually have cheered me up by now.

I need to do something. Aaaah.

I would go riding but there's not really much point, because Ray doesn't teach me anything and the horses at Hamsey aren't that amazing at the moment; they're not what I want, because I want fun and fizz and bouncing, which they don't really do. Goddamn. Damn damn damn.

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So this photo was taken ages ago but it'll still count. It's not like there's any reason for me to be numbering these photos anyway, it's more of an excuse than anything.

Anyway - merry christmas!

I've done the merriment and the board games and now I'm, well, bored. I should go to bed, like really should, because I'm hurting from a fall from a horse on Thursday (more serious than I thought - bit silly of me tbh. from what i can work out, i landed on the right side of my back then rolled with a fair amount of force into the wall, which was the most painful bit and the reason so much of me hurts. Bummerrrr.) and am so grouchy that it's painful .. Amazing how 3 months of being all active and stuff can get to you.

It's annoying, I wanted to swim and stuff over this holiday, so that I could at least come away from it feeling okay, but I got my ear pierced (eee!) so can't swim, but I also can't work out at the gym or anything because my muscles hurt from Thursday. Lucky thing I just found a yoga plan - I'm sure that's a good thing.

So what's new? My dinosaur onesie, mostly. LOVE it. I had a really good day with my family today. My dad and bro. We had so much food that we're having to postpone Christmas dinner until Friday though, hahaha.

I got my onesie, a book of Edgar Allen Poe's complete works, a book called 'The day Aberystwyth stood still', a helicopter ride (!), insurance on my car for when the Viking's down, fuel paid for the previous, and more to come from my moma. Two christmas celebrations can be odd, but also awesome.

I also miss my Viking like crazy. But I'm not sure how new that is..

Anyway, I've run out of things to say, and the tiredness has finally hit.

Night, beautifuls (L)

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Not gna lie guys, I feel crap. It was great to see my friends again and Patrick walked me home and we had one of our long talks about everything which was amazing. I've missed him.



But Chris was out, with his new lady, and they were making out a LOT. When they weren't, Chris was entirely ignoring her and often trying to disrupt my conversations. I say this but it's a complete overexaggeration - I was talking to Jimmy at one point and he tried to talk to him across the circle of people, and I was singing at Bassey at another point and Chris just took Bassey's attention. So nothing big at all. Just awkward. Just annoying.

His lady has a piercing in between her two front teeth. Patrick had to explain to me that it was a piercing, not a defect. I find that weird. Why would you want that? So indie she has bleeding gums.

I hate that, because of how she's looked at me, I know what he's said about me. That I'm a complete bitch who broke his heart. Ignoring how much I had to deal with, how I put so much into our relationship and got essentially jack shit back (to be fair he might have been nice I just can't fucking remember it. We had good times out (when I paid or I took us somewhere - not charging him for petrol, of course.)....), and how much money I spent on him. He still owes me at least £50 I'll never see again. Not to mention the amount of entry fees and drinks and god knows what else I paid for him. Never, ever get money involved in a relationship. Ever.

I'm still the bitch. The bitch who couldn't take it any more.. but like that matters. Makes me feel a bit like I shouldn't bother. On the good side, I recognise that this doesn't apply to everything and doesn't mean that my life is pointless or whatever. It just means that I need to break the cycle. Fingers crossed then, viking.

On the other good side, Skah was amazing at ripping the piss out of them.

So, well, it was okay overall. I'm not sure how tomorrow at Carolina's will be, but we'll have to see. I'll just remember to stay sober enough to understand myself and get drunk enough to be better at ignoring him.


Still. Peace out y'all.

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Several things, today..
1. I'm home again. So Hello Brighton! It's good to see you.

2. He makes my heart go boom.

3. What I was thinking about on the way home yesterday. Life is so much easier if you stop thinking about the goodbyes and start thinking about the hellos. That's a terrible way of phrasing what I'm trying to say, though. Basically, if you start thinking "I'm going to miss you like hell", you get all sad and stop doing what you want to spend your time doing. However, if you think "It's going to be amazing to see you again", you become excited; have things to look forwards to. Of course, you still miss the person, but it's a shit lot easier when you plan what to wear when you see them again, where to take them, what you'll do together. So I'm employing this idea both now, while I'm missing the Viking over Christmas, and in life. "I may miss you but I'm going to meet some amazing people" will come up a lot, I think. Just remember to keep the best ones around. And the best ones aren't necessarily the obvious ones. In fact, they're often not.

4. There are better places to read about how to breed horses than on a train. And that's a fact.

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I'm going home soon. I can't wait to see my pappy, and it'll be good to see some friends and things. And what's grand is I always have an excuse to not go out, which is that I can't afford anything. Christmas absolutely rinsed me, I'm skint now! I think people have good presents though.. well, I hope that they like them. Tee. Family meal with Becca and Alice tonight, which will be lovely. I can't wait. I'm excited to go home now, though I will miss Becca and Alice and H ever so much! Ah well - 3 weeks isn't tooo long :)

Teeee. Back to packing I go!

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I look shit & feel shit today. I was expecting to see the viking tonight and haven't because he went out which kina sucks. I've not been out for ages and miss it. Feels like I haven't had fun for ages. I have, it's stupid to say otherwise, but I just feel shit.

I'm talking to someone who's meant to be caring enough to make me feel better but she kinda isn't, like, at all. I got Alice round for the evening and so I stayed sane but now I'm having trouble doing so because I'm having stuff I'm not interested in told to me. This is boring, Life is boring. I feel crap. I'm so glad I can get away on Saturday, at last.