Day 28.

12/02/2013

Pancake date with Miss Rebecca "Colston"

Bless Yogi at his birthday; gave out little place cards but put a 't' in Becca's surname.. But anyway.

Pretty good day. Woke up with the boy after going to his pretty late, once Becca had fallen asleep. Sorted the horse, went to lectures, rode the horse (he tried to get me off but I put my stirrups up one hole a few days ago so felt much more secure so gave him a good smack and told him not to be an idiot), then came back for a lovely little date with Becca eating pancakes, then Mel came round to say hi and since then Becca and I have been chilling. It's been nice, good to spend time with her in quite a casual way again. Definitely make sure to keep it up: definitely not letting her go far.

Finally got to speak to both my parents, too, which was cool. Still forgot to tell my dad that I potted two balls at once in pool, but I'm sure he'll survive. At least Pod knows (I can't remember if I said but I texted him at the time because not enough people had seen and I was proud of myself). Can't wait to see Pod at the weekend.

I've also arranged to see Henrik's mum and meet his sister on Thursday (probably), with Deri. It was sweet; H invited us both. Deri was really touched by it, bless him. I think there may be a bit of guy love kicking around there.

I've completely forgotten what else I was going to say, because I'm exhausted... So I'm gonna go ahead and take that as a hint that it's time to go to bed.

Night night.

Cait.X

Day 27.

11/02/2013

Talking to the boy. No wonder I'm smiling like a goon.

To get off the phone with the boy, he thought one of us would have to tell the other to fuck off... Or tell a joke. So I said: "What do you get if you put arsenic on your cornflakes? ... A cereal killer."

Heheheheh.

Anyway. Yesterday went nothing as planned except for going out for Yogi's birthday at the end, which I can't even remember if I wrote about or not. Managed to get what I needed but didn't get home until 3, then left late for the yard so literally ran down the hill to get back in time to get ready and leave. Bit awkward but I did make the 30 minute journey in about 20 (including giving Nomad water and getting changed).

I got really pissed off by one of my friends last night. Deri realised and tried to change the subject and all, but the girl didn't realise what he was doing or that it was for the best (dumbo). She really wound me up so I literally didn't talk to her today. I think I looked at her twice.

I did get to spend a lot of time with Becca, though, which was lovely. She's a great person. It's now 9pm and I'm wondering if she'd mind if I went to stay at Dez laa's (one post and I've referred to him in 3 different ways, this is going well) though, because I'm never sure. She doesn't like being here alone but at the moment she's in bed and with her door shut so I'm not sure if she's ok about it or not. It's really weird.. She's hard to figure out.

She didn't even look at Deri last night, and treated me completely differently when he was around. Which is silly, because Lottie spent the night with us and found it really easy; when we're being too mushy or anything, you can just tell us to stop it and we do. I don't see what more a couple could do if they're actually happy being together, in all honesty. But there we go.

The next little while feels like it'll be a very defining time in which friends are worth the bother and which aren't. And I can't say I'm sure, either way. I hope that Becca works out that it's ok being around us together, and she will still get time with me.

On the good side, it seems she does still want to live with me (which was unexpected)... We'll have to see what houses and prices are like, though.

Anyway, time to shower, work, then hopefully see the boy.

Cait.X

Day 26.

10/02/2013

Good morning. :)

Aaand we're up to date again!

It's only 9am at the moment, but today I'm going to be quite busy so I thought I may as well post away. I have managed to so far wake up at the right time but not move, because I got distracted by this blog.

I had the weirdest dreams last night, a lot of them involving Deri in a way but at one point it was him, but I couldn't see him properly, he looked like someone else, who I don't know (and had an outline of a world map tattooed on his face, it was seriously weird).

Anyway. I'm about to go and do my horse (undecided if I'll ride or not: I want to, but don't really want to get wet, and it's pissing it down.... At the same time, he needs to get out because he hasn't been out of his box and can't go in the bark pen because he'd be silly and wind up horses Geoff Billington's giving lessons to people on. I'll think of soemthing, I'm sure. Poor pony; good thing his legs don't fill.

After that, I'll take a lil detour to campus for various things, then come back down the hill and sit in the kitchen working. My theory is that if I'm there, at least I am giving something to Becca and it's up to her if she accepts it or not.

I'll finish my welfare project then send it to my dad, then bell Fe and tell her I'm free to ride her horse (I'm hoping this will be about 2pm, I really should move).. because she wants me to jump it for her, which should be good fun for me. It'll also give me a chance to practice what I want to do with Nomad so I can be better practiced by the time I do it properly with him (I'm very out of practice).

After that, it'll be back to the yard for Noey before going home again to get ready for Yogi's birthday bash, which will be pretty awesome. I plan on staying at Deri's tonight too, because I get an extra 2 hours in bed tomorrow morning which would be lovely to spend with him. And seeing as no one else does anything but complain that I'm getting everything wrong, I want to spend it with him even more. He makes me inordinately happy; it's fantastic.

Have a good day, everyone: it's high time I moved my arse and got on with it all.

Big love.

Cait.X

Day 25.

09/02/2013

I didn't wake up until 3.30pm... I think my body was trying to tell me something.

This is the best card that my mother has ever sent me, it made me piss myself laughing. I read it then ran upstairs to share the love with Becca - definitely worth it. I can't figure her out, but I'm certain she's pissed at me.

I keep trying to ring my Mum, but she doesn't ring me back.

I did, however, manage to see Geoff Billington (top level showjumper) give a clinic all about riding. He spoke about balance, about rhythm. Good tips (that I wish I'd written down last night but I was exhausted by the time I got in, it was pretty late).

Cait.X

Day 24.

08/02/2013

Aberystwyth at this time of night is fantastic.

Taken while walking home from Lottie's at 1am... Legit.

Today, I met Deri's boyfriend Charlie, who's great craic. We got ridiculously drunk and all passed out at Dez laaaa's.

"I might leave you for Anthony. I know he's gay, but still."

"Not if I get there first."

"Please don't leave me for my dad."

"Why has Deri got a sock rail instead of a towel rail?"

Excellent night.

I also managed to pot two balls at once playing pool, but not enough people saw so I texted my brother about it. I'm sure he loved it.

Cait.X

Day 23.

07/02/2013

Spent the evening at the yard, watching people jump. My camera's shit, but you get the idea.

The boy took me for a drive because we had some time before my lectures. We went to the far side of Ynyslas and I was most fantastically happy, as I often am with him. Those drives do tend to make my days better.

Went to lecture afterwards and found out Becca had been ill, so decided to give her space and stay at Deri's because she didn't enjoy me being there when she was ill in Colchester, I could tell. I'm not sure if it was a good idea but I did debate about it for a long time with Lottie.

Lottie was a generally lovely person all day (again), it was really great to spend time with her. I've missed the strange lass.

Cait.X

Day 22.

06/02/2013

Proof that I actually slept in my bed.

I jumped my pony today! Lottie was there and I asked her to place poles and everything for me, and it was brilliant. He is a sweet wee man, just didn't entirely understand everything. We'll get there, though :)

I'm one happy horse owner. Lottie cooked me dinner and was lovely all day, it was great to catch up with her.

Cait.X